Earlier it was Green Day songs and now that 'Come Together' song...


Anyway, Ive been doing some doodles and a lot of reading. I never really thought about how much of a drain videogames and Neopets are on me up until a few days ago while reading that book by Susie Orbach. Its called BODIES and you've seen her on the Colbert Report if you watch the show. I mean I was well aware of the ungodly amount of time I spend on both games and Neopets but didn't stop to think that I was using it as an artistic outlet. I should of but sadly like many other I too am not always in control of my own brain as much as it pains me to admit that. When I did stop to think about it though I've recalled numerous times where I would be out somewhere and ideas would start pouring in and if I could I would hurry home. As soon as I close into home my brain will trigger 'gamesgamesgamesinternetinternetinternetneopetsneopetsneopets' and its a hostile takeover of my consciousness. Now I'm beginning to realize that the reason they win so easily is because they have an inside men. I turn my creativity straight into fantasy when I get home and my need for instant gratification demands it. So all of my ambitions, my urges and ideas are poured straight into someone else's blood and sweat of a project (it can be compared to living in an art museum because you like the paintings) and I've left myself to hang.

Now I know that there are plenty of artists who indulge their need of video games and the like and still bring their artistic endeavors to fruition. Hell I have a friend who does just that along with work and school. The root of my problem always has been my lack of self control and how it has spurn its own distractions and intrigues to keep me down. If it weren't for art class in high school, none of this would even matter. If it weren't for art class in high school though I would be dead. Maybe not physically dead but you get the idea.

I do have more ideas though, maybe tossing out some old ones but I don't know yet. I still need more work with GIMP and such.